Ugh. Yesterday before I took the girls outside to play for a while, I decided to pull Georgia’s hair up into a ponytail to get it out of her eyes a bit. Although she does rock with her usual wild Albert Einstein do. And, I don’t know. Just that simple change with her hair all of a sudden made me step back and look. Really, really look. At how incredibly big my baby girl is getting. Seriously, I know I say it all the time, but didn’t I just have her last week??? Where have all the days gone???
I think the upcoming next couple of weeks is making me more sentimental than normal. GA turns 2 in less than 2 weeks! Yes! Less than 2 weeks! She’s ready. My sassy little independent fireball is totally ready. My momma’s heart? Not so much. And then tonight big sister Bailey graduates from preschool! I think it’s that word……graduate. It’s like they just want all the moms to become blubbering messes in the audience as we envision this little preschool graduation quickly morphing into a high school graduation in about 3.4 seconds. I mean- they put them in caps and gowns and everything. Ahhhhhhhh!!!! Yep. My momma’s heart is most definitely not ready for that one. And of course the inevitable next step of kindergarten. Oh geez! My Bailey girl going to elementary school??? Really?!!??
To be honest, this is probably what I struggle with most as a mom. Not breastfeeding issues. Not discipline issues. Not comparing myself to other mom issues. None of the usual things that plague the headlines about moms. But rather this feeling of trying so desperately hard to enjoy each little moment. To make sure I’m fully present in their lives. To make sure I’m remembering all their joys and heartaches and milestones. And of course feeling like no matter how hard I try, it does no good. They grow up. So, so quickly. It’s like trying to hold water in my hands. No matter how tightly I cup my fingers, it’s going to leak out. And I know this is all part of it. And it’s all good. And it’s fun to watch them sprout up and become their own little people. And I’m trying to be ok with the growing and changes and the moving forward. But it kind of hurts too. I sometimes wish life was like that awful Adam Sandler movie “Click”, where I could just hit pause and keep them at this sweet little age for just a little longer.
Oh well. Part of being a parent I guess. And when I do get kind of bogged down in the speediness of time and childhood, I do try to take a breath and step back and realize I don’t need to look at all this from a worldly perspective. But rather from an eternal one. And truly…..thank God for Heaven. Pretty sure I’d be a depressed nutball without the hope of heaven! 🙂 Or at least a mama that does little more than cry every time my child learns a new word or goes potty for the first time. ha! yeah…..that sounds like fun.
Anyways. Enough sappy rambling. Here’s the good stuff…..pics of my cute girls. It’s definitely a heavy GA picture post, but Bailey kept running off. But don’t you worry- lots of fun graduation (sniff, sniff) pics of her to share soon!
seriously- the expressions this girl makes. so crazy
this is GA doing her “crazy” eyes where she rolls them all the way to the side and looks like some wacky SNL character Kristen Wig would play
this is what she does when you say “where’s your teeth??”
B is seriously the kindest, sweetest big sis who LOVES GA! this pic makes me so happy
yes, my kid eats sand
Alrighty girls……let’s slow this growing thing down just a bit, ok? 🙂